Friday, June 30, 2006
Feeling sweet. Satisfied.
Feeling sweet. Satisfied.
Into 8 months now. E feeling have come and go but nw i cn say that the feeling is still growing. Our frenship too. Many ppl had asked me to tell him hw im feeling while some ppl asked me drop e whole idea altogether. Well, Im thinking that mayb, this kind of rslp is better? Ya..some people say that its stupid, playing mind guessing games like that but well, i still wan to understand him more and i dont wan to spoil this feeling i have now.
Frens, mayb things might remain like this forever but im satisfied. So long as we stay in contact, can laugh and smile together, Im satisfied.
Today, may n enting say that even he ask me out, i wont go out oso. Hmm...I realli appear so rigid ar? Im quite shock by wat they say. But...i tink true. I mean i will think twice before ans him. Wat if its a joke? A prank? Somemore i feel uncomfortable going out with guys. Im nv comfortable to be frank, there mus b some gals around.
Well, project crashing but he gave me the motivation. Thanz. Feeling sick. Arghhhh. I wan to recover quickly. Pls.
Night everyone.
Frens, mayb things might remain like this forever but im satisfied. So long as we stay in contact, can laugh and smile together, Im satisfied.
Today, may n enting say that even he ask me out, i wont go out oso. Hmm...I realli appear so rigid ar? Im quite shock by wat they say. But...i tink true. I mean i will think twice before ans him. Wat if its a joke? A prank? Somemore i feel uncomfortable going out with guys. Im nv comfortable to be frank, there mus b some gals around.
Well, project crashing but he gave me the motivation. Thanz. Feeling sick. Arghhhh. I wan to recover quickly. Pls.
Night everyone.
Precious you
11:01 PM |
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Peak of yr2 sem1. Happy angry crazy day.
Seriously, Im going crazy. Crazy at hw things starts to crash into all e same day. Project due on Mon. Other classes jus need to hand in report but onli our class need to hand in report and slides. Blame it on myself on taking everything down n keep dragging n dragging till e deadline. Im realli dying. I wanna scold ppl, cry n scream yet i cn do none of this. Im owas e one taking care of ppl? Mayb but when cn ppl take care of me?
Seriously, im abit pissed nw. Dunno y or mayb for some reasons, im nt going to say it here.
Lots n lots of thing happen today. Angry, Stressed, Crazy, Happy n sick too, still have to rush that stupid project. Everything mixed in one day. No mood to state everything here.
Bye eveyone
Seriously, im abit pissed nw. Dunno y or mayb for some reasons, im nt going to say it here.
Lots n lots of thing happen today. Angry, Stressed, Crazy, Happy n sick too, still have to rush that stupid project. Everything mixed in one day. No mood to state everything here.
Bye eveyone
Precious you
10:27 PM |
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
A good afternoon
Sch had reopen for 3days now n im still in holiday mood, gaming n going sch for the sake of going. Projects are piling up n i still haven do anything to them yet. I think these few days, i mus chiong till siao le. Well, gt back 2paper le, EC n AAA...haha, i tink its not bad? EC gt 82% n AAA gt 93.5%. AAA was quite a disappointment cos shld nt keep seeing shuai ge when doing the paper de. Haiz...but lucky still manage to keep it in e 90s range. Yeah.
I had a good afternoon. After AAA lect, went Canteen 2 for yu pian mi fen. A big serving tt may n enting cannot finish em. As usual, i finished whatever food is served in a plate or bowl. After lunch, went library to do project.
Time to start on the report and i manage to finish only half a page of the report, the background of BreadTalk. After that, mental block. Seriously dunno how to fill in the findings and research into the report, have to find ways to fill them in and organise them in a proper manner. After doing the short little part of the report, started chatting onlie.
Him. A week since i contact him. Howeva, this time, it feels so different. Mayb for the both of us, we knew stuff n we jus keep it to ourself. Yet, i tink its a good thing cos im more daring in expressing myself this time n nt afraid that hes thinking nonsense. One thing im worried is that, i gt my hopes too high again and i have to fall heavy.
Still hopes wasnt such a bad thing right? I mean if hes wasnt e one then let him be. I mean its like im still on board on e bus which i cnt c e destination. One day when i noe where to go and what bus to take, i will alight from this bus and board a new one which cn bring me to the destination. All i can do is to wait...
So not a bad day after all. Thanz to him. So hope everyone will have a good day n night oso.
I had a good afternoon. After AAA lect, went Canteen 2 for yu pian mi fen. A big serving tt may n enting cannot finish em. As usual, i finished whatever food is served in a plate or bowl. After lunch, went library to do project.
Time to start on the report and i manage to finish only half a page of the report, the background of BreadTalk. After that, mental block. Seriously dunno how to fill in the findings and research into the report, have to find ways to fill them in and organise them in a proper manner. After doing the short little part of the report, started chatting onlie.
Him. A week since i contact him. Howeva, this time, it feels so different. Mayb for the both of us, we knew stuff n we jus keep it to ourself. Yet, i tink its a good thing cos im more daring in expressing myself this time n nt afraid that hes thinking nonsense. One thing im worried is that, i gt my hopes too high again and i have to fall heavy.
Still hopes wasnt such a bad thing right? I mean if hes wasnt e one then let him be. I mean its like im still on board on e bus which i cnt c e destination. One day when i noe where to go and what bus to take, i will alight from this bus and board a new one which cn bring me to the destination. All i can do is to wait...
So not a bad day after all. Thanz to him. So hope everyone will have a good day n night oso.
Precious you
8:54 PM |
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Tired--Maple
These few days have been playing maple. Not so much for the maple craze but jus sian n play. Somemore i created a new acc so have to choing, reali cannot tahan being so lousy. This time, my character mus b better than my previous one. I have e confident tt i can do it.
Slept at 3plus last night and i nearly could not get out of bed. Eyes are heavy and wet, signalling me that i did not have a peaceful and ample sleep. Haiz...Dragged myself out of bed and feed myself with a bottle of chicken essence to perk me up for the morning. The tiredness is driving me crazy.
The chicken essence showed its effect almost immediately cos i did not yawn until noon. For the whole morning, i was super duper hyperactive which reasons are unknow..ahahaha. Make myself abit xia suai in e lect hall today cos im realli noisy. Surprisingly, i did talk to wensong. Ahaha...issit tt im being polite or jus dont wan to create awkwardness? When did i eva bcom so kind?
Saw em at a coop. I now know how to read signals from Enting and had oso learnt to act normal. I guess i didn flash my best smile to em, jus wave to say hi, for the sake of politeness. I greeted everyone this time. To prevent people from complaining, budden gt this one stupid guy ignore me totally...dao.
After lect, lunch n project. Didn contibute much for project as e chicken essence effect is wearing off n im half dead. Jus lie there and try to have a nap... a realli short one. After that, crapping time. Hahaha...but nice time crapping la. Ahaha.
Went jp n library and borrowed 2 books. Vow to finish em ^^. Not a bad day after all. Enjoy the days. Night everyone.
Slept at 3plus last night and i nearly could not get out of bed. Eyes are heavy and wet, signalling me that i did not have a peaceful and ample sleep. Haiz...Dragged myself out of bed and feed myself with a bottle of chicken essence to perk me up for the morning. The tiredness is driving me crazy.
The chicken essence showed its effect almost immediately cos i did not yawn until noon. For the whole morning, i was super duper hyperactive which reasons are unknow..ahahaha. Make myself abit xia suai in e lect hall today cos im realli noisy. Surprisingly, i did talk to wensong. Ahaha...issit tt im being polite or jus dont wan to create awkwardness? When did i eva bcom so kind?
Saw em at a coop. I now know how to read signals from Enting and had oso learnt to act normal. I guess i didn flash my best smile to em, jus wave to say hi, for the sake of politeness. I greeted everyone this time. To prevent people from complaining, budden gt this one stupid guy ignore me totally...dao.
After lect, lunch n project. Didn contibute much for project as e chicken essence effect is wearing off n im half dead. Jus lie there and try to have a nap... a realli short one. After that, crapping time. Hahaha...but nice time crapping la. Ahaha.
Went jp n library and borrowed 2 books. Vow to finish em ^^. Not a bad day after all. Enjoy the days. Night everyone.
Precious you
8:39 PM |
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Tagged
Recently have been doing this. But well, nvm. Have been rather down recently, so i jus cut short everything K? Hahaha
Favourites
Favourites colours= Grey, orange, blue, pink, white
Favourites food= Anything so long as it is not too oily n spicy
Favourites Song= Hmm..so long as it is in cantonese.
Favourites Movie= V long ago de movie, moulin rouge.
Favourites Sport= Swim, Bball
Favourites Day= Weekends
Favourites season= Every seaon have its unqiueness
Favourites ice cream= COOkies and cream
Current
Current mood: Neutral.
Current taste: Neutral
Current Clothes : Pajamas. =X
Current Desktop: My Lappy
Current time: 21 00 pm
Current surrounding: my own room
Current annoyances: my vulnerability towards him
Firsts
First best fren: Qian Yi!!
First crush: Too many. Forget already
First Movie: If i didn rmb wrongly, flintstones
First Lie: Lied too many times. Forget already
First music= Twinkle twinkle little stars
K, all for today. But today mood is rather good. I mean family owas make me forget all those stupid stuff. Night everyone.
Favourites
Favourites colours= Grey, orange, blue, pink, white
Favourites food= Anything so long as it is not too oily n spicy
Favourites Song= Hmm..so long as it is in cantonese.
Favourites Movie= V long ago de movie, moulin rouge.
Favourites Sport= Swim, Bball
Favourites Day= Weekends
Favourites season= Every seaon have its unqiueness
Favourites ice cream= COOkies and cream
Current
Current mood: Neutral.
Current taste: Neutral
Current Clothes : Pajamas. =X
Current Desktop: My Lappy
Current time: 21 00 pm
Current surrounding: my own room
Current annoyances: my vulnerability towards him
Firsts
First best fren: Qian Yi!!
First crush: Too many. Forget already
First Movie: If i didn rmb wrongly, flintstones
First Lie: Lied too many times. Forget already
First music= Twinkle twinkle little stars
K, all for today. But today mood is rather good. I mean family owas make me forget all those stupid stuff. Night everyone.
Precious you
8:56 PM |
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Will he noe? Give up or not?
Did i ever say that i hate e feeling of liking someone n needing someone? Its like u have e feeling of loosing urself as u sink deeper n deeper. These few days, i tink i let myself sink so deep that i tink he mus have find me irritating. I almost forget that im jus his frens. Now everything had turned into this way, theres no way but to give up everythig. Suddenly, Im jus so tired of myself being like this and playing this stupid hide n seek game. He too is a big idiot. If he know, den he jolly well tell me so, to keep on liking him or jus say goodbye. Dont keep me waiting, wat for being so wishy washy over things. Im getting more n more impatient with him n now i tink, time to say bye bye to him. I dont wan keep guessing n waiting for things to happen. Im seriously quite unhappy at hw things goes this way.
I tink im dead. Letting his fren come close to knowing everything. Sending e wrong msg to e wrong window. Have to lie (though part of e story is true) to cover up everything. I mean yes he know, but i jus wan it swept under e carpet now. Haha. Yeah, goodbye.
So im free now. Im feeling light. Thanz to him for making me feel thoroughly sad once, tts y making me c thru. Wat does not belongs to me, does not belongs to me. My happiness one day will come to me. Kk, that will b all for today.Though its abit bleak now, but im truly happy. ^^ Night everyone.
I tink im dead. Letting his fren come close to knowing everything. Sending e wrong msg to e wrong window. Have to lie (though part of e story is true) to cover up everything. I mean yes he know, but i jus wan it swept under e carpet now. Haha. Yeah, goodbye.
So im free now. Im feeling light. Thanz to him for making me feel thoroughly sad once, tts y making me c thru. Wat does not belongs to me, does not belongs to me. My happiness one day will come to me. Kk, that will b all for today.Though its abit bleak now, but im truly happy. ^^ Night everyone.
Precious you
10:27 PM |
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Survey = Outing
Today e 3 of us meet up to do PMKT project. Went sch at 11 n photocopy the survey forms. End out...it turned out into an outing instead of doing project. Hahaa... We are so tempted to go shopping n walk walk la.
Went Bukit Panjan Plaza for lunch den proceed to Bishan Junction 8 den went Orchard, Far East Plaza. All e places we went, we jus window shop cos all had nt much money left. N its realli surprising that we didn buy anything. Seriously, its been so long we went gai gai together. A rare chance. Have to treasure this chance. Den when nxt month come, when all projects have been completed, its time for us to went Bugis to shop. Hahaha.
When I was trying clothes in Far east, my left eyelid twitch. It twitched before and it happened to b smth good happening. I jus rubbishily said out that e good thing mayb tt i cn c em ard. And Yeah, i saw Sherman near Gelare there! Its so zhun lo.
Well...spooky thing is not onli this. Went Bishan Junction 8. Its been so long since i last went there, e last time was like 5yrs ago. Everything is so different from my last visit. We went up to e second storey, somewhere ard SONY GALLERY, i immediately have this De Javu. I remember that I had a dream that look almost similar to e place. even one of e shop name looks exaclty e same, 'Alta' smth smth.
Well, shld i give up shld i not? I noe that hes not e one for me and yet, my heart dont wanna give way. Somemore, wat enting said, reallli give me hope. But wat if, hes actually like tt? Den isnt my hope gonna drop into nothing again?
After all, a fun day today, except for stupid thoughts. Enjoy urself and nite. ^^
Went Bukit Panjan Plaza for lunch den proceed to Bishan Junction 8 den went Orchard, Far East Plaza. All e places we went, we jus window shop cos all had nt much money left. N its realli surprising that we didn buy anything. Seriously, its been so long we went gai gai together. A rare chance. Have to treasure this chance. Den when nxt month come, when all projects have been completed, its time for us to went Bugis to shop. Hahaha.
When I was trying clothes in Far east, my left eyelid twitch. It twitched before and it happened to b smth good happening. I jus rubbishily said out that e good thing mayb tt i cn c em ard. And Yeah, i saw Sherman near Gelare there! Its so zhun lo.
Well...spooky thing is not onli this. Went Bishan Junction 8. Its been so long since i last went there, e last time was like 5yrs ago. Everything is so different from my last visit. We went up to e second storey, somewhere ard SONY GALLERY, i immediately have this De Javu. I remember that I had a dream that look almost similar to e place. even one of e shop name looks exaclty e same, 'Alta' smth smth.
Well, shld i give up shld i not? I noe that hes not e one for me and yet, my heart dont wanna give way. Somemore, wat enting said, reallli give me hope. But wat if, hes actually like tt? Den isnt my hope gonna drop into nothing again?
After all, a fun day today, except for stupid thoughts. Enjoy urself and nite. ^^
Precious you
8:12 PM |
Survey = Outing
Today e 3 of us meet up to do PMKT project. Went sch at 11 n photocopy the survey forms. End out...it turned out into an outing instead of doing project. Hahaa... We are so tempted to go shopping n walk walk la.
Went Bukit Panjan Plaza for lunch den proceed to Bishan Junction 8 den went Orchard, Far East Plaza. All e places we went, we jus window shop cos all had nt much money left. N its realli surprising that we didn buy anything. Seriously, its been so long we went gai gai together. A rare chance. Have to treasure this chance. Den when nxt month come, when all projects have been completed, its time for us to went Bugis to shop. Hahaha.
When I was trying clothes in Far east, my left eyelid twitch. It twitched before and it happened to b smth good happening. I jus rubbishily said out that e good thing mayb tt i cn c em ard. And Yeah, i saw Sherman near Gelare there! Its so zhun lo.
Well...spooky thing is not onli this. Went Bishan Junction 8. Its been so long since i last went there, e last time was like 5yrs ago. Everything is so different from my last visit. We went up to e second storey, somewhere ard SONY GALLERY, i immediately have this De Javu. I remember that I had a dream that look almost similar to e place. even one of e shop name looks exaclty e same, 'Alta' smth smth.
Well, shld i give up shld i not? I noe that hes not e one for me and yet, my heart dont wanna give way. Somemore, wat enting said, reallli give me hope. But wat if, hes actually like tt? Den isnt my hope gonna drop into nothing again?
After all, a fun day today, except for stupid thoughts. Enjoy urself and nite. ^^
Went Bukit Panjan Plaza for lunch den proceed to Bishan Junction 8 den went Orchard, Far East Plaza. All e places we went, we jus window shop cos all had nt much money left. N its realli surprising that we didn buy anything. Seriously, its been so long we went gai gai together. A rare chance. Have to treasure this chance. Den when nxt month come, when all projects have been completed, its time for us to went Bugis to shop. Hahaha.
When I was trying clothes in Far east, my left eyelid twitch. It twitched before and it happened to b smth good happening. I jus rubbishily said out that e good thing mayb tt i cn c em ard. And Yeah, i saw Sherman near Gelare there! Its so zhun lo.
Well...spooky thing is not onli this. Went Bishan Junction 8. Its been so long since i last went there, e last time was like 5yrs ago. Everything is so different from my last visit. We went up to e second storey, somewhere ard SONY GALLERY, i immediately have this De Javu. I remember that I had a dream that look almost similar to e place. even one of e shop name looks exaclty e same, 'Alta' smth smth.
Well, shld i give up shld i not? I noe that hes not e one for me and yet, my heart dont wanna give way. Somemore, wat enting said, reallli give me hope. But wat if, hes actually like tt? Den isnt my hope gonna drop into nothing again?
After all, a fun day today, except for stupid thoughts. Enjoy urself and nite. ^^
Precious you
8:12 PM |