Sunday, January 15, 2006
I rather there isnt anything left frm u...
I rather there isnt anything left frm u...
For those who have knew me well, u shld noe tt im owas in tt stupid situation, guessing tt who does this particular person treat me as n hw shld i treat him. N usually, i try to make e distantce seems as distant as it cn b. Tts becos tt im so afraid tt if i tink too much out of e whole thing, i will eventually hurt too much. Even for me to consider someone as a fren, its still a v v v great process, cos to me, before frens, theres still much more relationships.
E past have definitely brought me alot of burden, regardless of frenship or BGR. I have tried to put em away, off my mind however it jus keeps haunting me. I rather i dont tok to him foreva than noeing tt e rlsp between us have totally disintergrate into nth more than ex-classmates. Howeva, i cn still c him online, im still tempt to tok to him yet theres no courage. I like e song firs love there says, ' u will owas b on my mind...' I noe he will owas b here n shall owas remain as memories. Howeva, i hate these memories cos i rather there isnt anything left frm u, even memories, or rather, i hope i have nv known u before.
Nw, hw afraid am i tt e new him will jus b gone lyk tt. To other gals ard... 'is it going to start?' who? When? wat? I noe im going hysterical cos im going crazy. Im stuck in between! I wanna keep away e old one n go after e new one. Yet i have absolutely NO courage!! Everything in e past have stop me frm going on. Im owas said tt im waiting tts bcos i cn do nth beside waiting. Waiting someone who cn replace him n bring me enough courage to let go.
Why do u come onli when u needed me or when theres something u wan out of me?? Cos i noe tt between u n me, theres nth more!!
E past have definitely brought me alot of burden, regardless of frenship or BGR. I have tried to put em away, off my mind however it jus keeps haunting me. I rather i dont tok to him foreva than noeing tt e rlsp between us have totally disintergrate into nth more than ex-classmates. Howeva, i cn still c him online, im still tempt to tok to him yet theres no courage. I like e song firs love there says, ' u will owas b on my mind...' I noe he will owas b here n shall owas remain as memories. Howeva, i hate these memories cos i rather there isnt anything left frm u, even memories, or rather, i hope i have nv known u before.
Nw, hw afraid am i tt e new him will jus b gone lyk tt. To other gals ard... 'is it going to start?' who? When? wat? I noe im going hysterical cos im going crazy. Im stuck in between! I wanna keep away e old one n go after e new one. Yet i have absolutely NO courage!! Everything in e past have stop me frm going on. Im owas said tt im waiting tts bcos i cn do nth beside waiting. Waiting someone who cn replace him n bring me enough courage to let go.
Why do u come onli when u needed me or when theres something u wan out of me?? Cos i noe tt between u n me, theres nth more!!
Precious you
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