Thursday, June 08, 2006
Sadness Begone
Sadness Begone
Yesterday is seriously not a very good day for me cos i brave the heavy rain n went to e library. I did take umbrella with me budden by e time i reach e library, im all wet. Not onli that, my discman, my txtbk n papers all r wet! They r kept inside my bag de leh n they become like tt. End out my discman go mad n i have nth to listen to when study. Well, almost end of life span for tt le cos already been with me for 3yrs le. Time to go, thanz n bye bye discman. To pay up for my lack of music equipment, i have to fork out 100plus to buy a mp3 player. Haiz. Abit regretting buying e mp3 player. Not reali worth it, shld have insisted on buying Creative.
Well, sadness be gone, sadness be gone. Thanz to those who have consider my feelings n those who have console me. I cannot deny that im a lil jealous n dont realli feel good about it. I tried laughing it off n i did. Is it the real smile or am i jus faking it? Im numb n i cnt find out e difference. And so let it be, knowing everything too clearly mayb too painful. I tink i shld jus somehow try to put it down n be his fren.
Now studying i tink is no longer for myself onli. Yup, is for my future, but more imptly is that i wan to make my mum happy. I noe shes tired from day to day stuff, phone bills, electric bills, medical bills, our pocket money n stress from her work. Not much stuff can bring her relief and happiness i guess. Nothing i can help up either. I cant go to work, even if i did, it wont be permanent. Im nt much of a mature kid n in fact im v willful, dunno how to please ppl. The onli thing tt i noe i cn do n i shld do is at least let her not to worry bout me n give her e results she yearn for. After all, shes e one subsidising my education. Its only right to prove her that her investment is getting some returns.
K. That will be all for tonight. An emotional entry yet not so much emotions oso. Night everyone :D
Well, sadness be gone, sadness be gone. Thanz to those who have consider my feelings n those who have console me. I cannot deny that im a lil jealous n dont realli feel good about it. I tried laughing it off n i did. Is it the real smile or am i jus faking it? Im numb n i cnt find out e difference. And so let it be, knowing everything too clearly mayb too painful. I tink i shld jus somehow try to put it down n be his fren.
Now studying i tink is no longer for myself onli. Yup, is for my future, but more imptly is that i wan to make my mum happy. I noe shes tired from day to day stuff, phone bills, electric bills, medical bills, our pocket money n stress from her work. Not much stuff can bring her relief and happiness i guess. Nothing i can help up either. I cant go to work, even if i did, it wont be permanent. Im nt much of a mature kid n in fact im v willful, dunno how to please ppl. The onli thing tt i noe i cn do n i shld do is at least let her not to worry bout me n give her e results she yearn for. After all, shes e one subsidising my education. Its only right to prove her that her investment is getting some returns.
K. That will be all for tonight. An emotional entry yet not so much emotions oso. Night everyone :D
Precious you
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